Tuesday, June 23, 2009

when it rains, it pours

I have been having a hard time of things the past week or so...things were starting to look up...I got a phone call this morning from my step-mother informing me that my Dad's mother passed away last night.  Grandma Hamilton (she remarried and changed her name from White) was a guarded woman, she was not the squishiest of people, let alone grandmothers!  She had been suffering for years and while I am very thankful she is at peace now I will miss her dearly.  

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

sometimes the right thing is the hardest thing...

  Yucka to all the tears, all the heartbreak, all the questions, and all the time I have wasted.   Yucka to all the nights I didn't sleep because I was asking the impossible of myself!   Yucka to allowing myself to believe I'm not good enough!  Yucka to my belief that there is something wrong with me! I have worked too hard to get healthy and find happiness in my life to settle now.  Yucka because I do love him, and he does love me but he isn't the one.  Yucka to me for throwing the truth back in his face over and over again...yucka. noey. this sucks.