Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I have been having a hard time of things the past week or so...things were starting to look up...I got a phone call this morning from my step-mother informing me that my Dad's mother passed away last night. Grandma Hamilton (she remarried and changed her name from White) was a guarded woman, she was not the squishiest of people, let alone grandmothers! She had been suffering for years and while I am very thankful she is at peace now I will miss her dearly.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Yucka to all the tears, all the heartbreak, all the questions, and all the time I have wasted. Yucka to all the nights I didn't sleep because I was asking the impossible of myself! Yucka to allowing myself to believe I'm not good enough! Yucka to my belief that there is something wrong with me! I have worked too hard to get healthy and find happiness in my life to settle now. Yucka because I do love him, and he does love me but he isn't the one. Yucka to me for throwing the truth back in his face over and over again...yucka. noey. this sucks.